Tantrum

I want to throw myself on the ground so I can throw a proper fit. I dropped my iPhone for the thirteen thousand time today. It was the straw, THE STRAW! It still functions, it just looks like shit. I dropped it a couple days after Christmas and I thought that was bad, I yearn for those very recent days.

So I guess it’s time I look you straight in the eyes and tell you I did not get into UCSF. For a couple days I was so crushed I could barely breathe. But that wore off and I fabricated plans b, c, and d with my anger grief revenge energy. Apparently UCSF doesn’t want excellent nurses who had to overcome only moderate hardships in life. They want the real miracle children. You know, the Ugandan refugees who created a foundation and saved their village and managed to take all the pre-reqs. WHATEVER UCSF. That’s fine, I’m fine. Your program is ridiculously priced anyway. So yeah.

I am applying to at least three more programs. They are all way cheaper and shorter, but they are 2nd bachelor’s instead of master’s programs. I don’t want to say where I’m applying because they are not impacted. Yet. These nursing programs go from 0-60 in 2 months. One month I meet all the requirements and I’m really competitive and the next month TBU told your girlfriend, who’s also applying to nursing schools, about the non-impacted programs The Millionizer has found and then suddenly my measely 3.84 GPA (in pre-reqs) is chicken shit.

Speaking of shit, I lost mine yesterday when TBU told me he mentioned my #1 choice to his friends girlfriend. Now she wants to talk to me and TBU wants us all to have dinner together. I said, fine, I’ll talk to her but I’m going to say these programs aren’t accredited or some crazy shit. TBU was all miffed at my plan to sabatoge. Really though, what did he expect? I am fucking tired of being poor. Nurses may be (portrayed as) loving caregivers but getting into nursing school is cut throat. I’m sure he was right when he said only good would come from me helping someone else but I didn’t want to take the chance.